Verdict is in…

You really have to have the right people around you when you’re feeling vulnerable. Having the wrong people around during those periods of your life will create scars that you will carry for a very long time. It’s much better to be by yourself then to surround yourself with anyone who does not have your…

Come Mourning

Mornings are the hardest. Mustering the strength to sit in the courtroom. To hear, to see and to relive someone’s last moments. Cut short undeservingly. The accused being someone I love with all my heart. Knowing the truth of him and his heart. His great love and loyalty. The most complex of juxtapositions. The tears…

The Last Time I Almost Died (Black Women are Super Heroes)

Trigger Warning: Suicide At least since high school, I have battled with suicidal thoughts. At first, I thought it was just the angst of youth. Later in life, I made an actual suicide attempt. I spent several days in the hospital and it was the first time I ever had my mental health evaluated. In…

How I Lost Weight and Stuff

Warning: Some foul language included 🙂 Lots of folks have asked about my weight loss. I wanted to write about it so that I could share the reality of how I am doing it and why. For those who don’t like to read…the summary is…there is no magic bullet. I have spent the majority of…

The Phone Call

“Court is coming up. Court is coming up. Court is coming up. “ There is never a moment where this refrain isn’t beating in my brain. Sometimes, its a light pulse, a bare thump. A small feeling of sadness that cannot be satiated.. Sometimes it is like the beginning of an isolated headache. Not enough…

In the Woods

The darkness in our souls called out to one another. When we met, the pull was undeniable. In our mutual fugue states, we were both bumping through the night. Trying to figure our way out of the dark, grasping for anything that could get us from the hellish here to anywhere else. The little lights…

One Day…

Indeed it is a struggle to constantly censor the things I want to write. I understand that my story doesn’t just belong to me, but I yearn to write whatever, whenever with no hidden costs or penalties. One day, I’m committed to letting it allllll hang out.

PSA To My Own Personal Troll…

Hey…you, yes you. The one who is scrolling through my site looking for something negative to say. Here is a public service announcement just for you. I love my children. All of them. Including the one who is incarcerated. Maybe you are the type of person to denounce or be ashamed of your children, but…

Finding yourself while falling

Have you ever found yourself in that place of feeling you have totally fucked up your life? Like, “Yeah, I know I accomplished some shit but, I am NO FUCKING WAY NEAR where I really thought I would be”. I suppose that’s a mid life crisis, right? I’d rather like to think its a time…