I am extremely grateful for this three day weekend! I definitely needed that extra day. It’s been a tough weekend, to put it mildly. I had one of those super ugly cries that make your eyes swell and your nasal passages clog up. The kind that leaves balled up tissue everywhere. The kind that leaves you staring at the ceiling breathing out of your mouth with a piece of twisted up tissue stuck up one nostril. Yep. One of those.
But I feel exponentially better. I haven’t cried like that in forever and I needed it. When it was all said and done, I was left with a spirit of deep reflection, a little melancholy and a whole lot of insight. Life is changing for me and while the changes are painful, they are necessary. There is so much to do and so much to learn!
Really and truly, you cannot move forward until you know exactly where you want to go and that has to be constantly re evaluated. I am finding that you also have to be honest about the things that are working for you and the things that are not. Once you know how you feel, you have an obligation to move in those directions.
My cry was a release of years of suppressed feelings, self neglect, hurt and more hurt. But finally, I am releasing it and I plan to continue to ugly cry, redirect and evaluate as often as needed. Happiness is in my hands. And its in yours too. The longer you make excuses, the longer you hold on to people, places and things that do not serve your personal path, the longer you will be stuck. Feeling stuck leads to bitterness and resentment. You have the power to change your life. Is it easy? No. Does it hurt? Yes. Is it scary? Yes. Is it worth it? Always.
I wish I could tell you it was easy. It’s isnt. Letting go is never easy. But it is worth it. Let’s hear it for the ugly cry.